Hello and Welcome to my Blog!

Who I really am is unimportant. Where I live is unimportant. What I do for a living is really unimportant. But WHAT I am is important.

I am the person you used to bully in kindergarten. I am the person you ignored in high school. I am the person who leaves the interview room, and you immediately cross their name off the list for the amazing job offer. I am the person who you snidely make fun of at work, getting your kicks at my expense, due to my social ineptitude.

I have spent the past 20-something years of my life, knowing I was different. I have received several diagnoses; delayed development due to extreme prematurity, depression, anxiety, avoidant personality disorder. But none of them described quite what if felt like...to be me.

A battle with anxiety landed me in a treatment centre with other teenagers, for close to 2 years. A decade later, I realize these same people have overcome their difficulties; they are getting married, are in relationships, having children, maintaining friendships.

I am not.

The problems never went away, they were a festering wound that never wanted to heal. Always at the surface, looking for a chance to spread. The real issue is that I very likely have a neuro-biological disorder, characterized by an inability to interact socially, read body language, and react accordingly.

I am the girl with Asperger's Syndrome.

I cannot change. Do not ask me too. I CAN and WILL compensate for my difficulties, but I CANNOT and WILL NOT change.

I am starting this blog as a way of dealing with my frustrations over being different. There have to be other people out there who feel the same way. I am hoping by sharing my experiences, insights and thoughts, others may do the same.